负面情绪

最近真的好不开心 一直被负面情绪影响
人家说游戏玩得太认真 你就输了 可不是认真玩 怎么知道自己是不是赢家呢？
负面思想来袭 一方面是课业上 一方面是友情上 另一方面而因为你 或许自己真的想太多了
不喜欢的事情实在是太多了 你也不能因为要满足自己而要他人改变吧？ 你自己都不喜欢被改变。
一直嫌弃自己 很讨厌现在的自己 自信去哪儿
人比人会逼死人 难受
自卑。

Stressed.

How to communicate with others or different people will not be a problem for me but how comes I will feel so hard to interact well with this group members and I feel I had been ignored because of I'm the only one outsider? I feel disappointed and desperately depressed in these few weeks. It's not the first time I faced the problem like this. I had tried my best to join them and made jokes with them but since my efforts are useless.
I think I have not to blame them because this might happen on me to others. Maybe. As people grew up, you have to know that how cruel is the reality and learn to accept it. You can't change the people's mind then you change yours. Keep in my mind, dear me.
Thanks being so patient to listen what I had met and the unhappiness things that happened in these few days/weeks. I knew that my temper is started to being bad again recently. I showed my face to you whenever I feel something is not cheer me up or whatever things that I don't like to listen to. I feel guilty too but I didn't tell you maybe is the face problem.
Pessimistic always kills my sanguine and I was like finally understand why those people will commit suicide when they failed to build relationship with others and I knew that kind of feeling. They need someone to listen to their heart. Fortunately, I still have friends and you that can be my truly listeners. I'm the fortune one, remember it.
Sorry daby, I knew I always make you frustrated and worried.
I will always love you. :(